`~__ aLL ab0ut mUh lyf // ]**

2006-05-04T04:44:00.000-07:00

www.d0ubt-m3.blogspot.com
might change layout soon, comment abt the new skin der kkz? thx

2006-05-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

KISS GOODBYE-WANG LEE HOM
Baby bu yao zai ku qi, zhe yi mu duo yao shou xi
jin wo zhao ni de shou bi ci, dou she bu de fen chi
mei yi ci xiang kai kou dan bu ru bao chi an jing
gei wo yi fen zhong zhuan xin, hao hao xin shang ni de mei
xing fu da pei bei shang, tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha
cuo zhe de yan lei bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang
fu chu de ai shou bu hui, hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei
bie ba wo xin ye dai zou, qu gen sui
(reff)
mei yi ci he ni fen kai, shen shen de bei ni da bai
mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou, tong ku nan yi shi huai
mei yi ci he ni fen kai, mei yi ci kiss you Goodbye
ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai (wo zhong yu ming bai)
xing fu da pei bei shang, tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha
cuo zhe de yan lei bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang
fu chu de ai shou bu hui, dan qian ni de wo bu neng gei
wo cai ming bai ai zui zhen shi de zi wei

2006-05-04T04:09:00.000-07:00

sighhs... not getting any better.. except for de fact that i made two buxx out of selling my iu ticket to my fren.. grins.. lol he paid 40 buxx n since both of us were out of small notes i made him let me kiip de change.. selling anoder 2 tickets tmr.. hope dey dun hav change also xP lols.. thursday, damn.. think he's asleep, timing is soo not rightt... haven been like talking to him for so long.. situation cannot continue coz im like going mad already, my sis has not given me my allowance.. she probably forgot or will not.. having 2 tuition 2moro right after one another.. tired.. sheesh.. so tiring.. nth muc to blog today, seems rather dead n lifeless.. owh.. yea my stupid class teacher gave me a warning letter for nt attending skool without a letter, dammits.. stoopid.. it was like dated january n all.. wad the crap la.. damn her... sianx..

missing emrys so god damn lot..

2006-05-03T05:28:00.000-07:00

shits... i jzt realized im super broke... my drawer is already empty.. n my wallet is dry... not tat i have a wallet bt jzt an expression.. see.. i got 200 buxx bonus frm sis last mth.. n i used it till it totally gone.. GONE!! VANISHED.. THIN AIR..!! so friking fast... dammit!! 200 RINGGIT.. IN JZT 20 TO 25 DAYS.. n now.. i haven gotten my alowance..plus my skool's iu day is around de corner, niid money to buy ticket, clothes and etc etc.. im planning to work during the hols, which wud be end of dis mth.. gosh so long more.. im counting... ahh but its nt like i can work throughout the whole hols coz moms gonna make me go church camp, n i wanna go sumwer else during tat time.. i planned like so long ledii... niid money to go u noe!!! n its nt sumting i wanna miss or i can miss cozz aahhhh long story.. everything nniid money..damn materialistic world.. see i wanna go for my so-called planned holiday aso niid money for bus ticket, den lodging.. n dis is like definitely sumting i have to pay on my own, not sumting i can pray for my parents to pay for it... so i told a few ppl my very very serious crisis.. n out of all of dem.... 100% of dem told me de same thing.. heyyyyy get this in ur heaaadddd... i dun call, dun spend money on calling, how u tink its gonna continue?? n i hate it wen dey calculate, saying that i shudn be the one doing all of it... kay so mebe they're trying to help ease the problem here.. but sumtimes u cannot reli calculate if u tink smths jzt worth it.. i mean he cannot call aso wardddd....den if both dun call.. die righttt?? so nvm laaaaa not like i'll die rightt? zzz.. tho i feel like it right now.. if oni i cud use com, den can use skype.. NO NID FOR ME TO BUY RELOAD EVERYYY SINGLE NIGHT.. dammits.. i hate life...

loves emrys...

2006-05-02T23:51:00.000-07:00

i suck in pangya!!!
and everything else...geez.. i do lotsa stuff... frm sports, to playing online games, to studying, and to blogging.. AND I SUK IN ALL OF DEM!! baka... im pisd...
pisd
pisd
pisd
pisd
pisd
IM PISSED GET IT??
crapp....im angryyyy... sheesh... sum ppl get ALL de brains, sum get ALL de looks.. N I GET ALL DE ANGRYFYING THINGS. baka..

2006-05-02T01:43:00.000-07:00

anoder one of those posts..

jzt nw.. argue.. haixx my faultt...den he fell asleep.. shud be ok ledi baa... sighs.. was hugging my pillow, placed my mike right nxt to me.. thinking of me hugging him.. i noe la.. damn pathetic u wud say.. den i woke up.. saw my frens nick.. apparently his frens think angeline th bitch is hawt.. mcb.. im sick of it already.. im sick of thinking good of her..i was nice to her.. finding the type of guy she likes.. n she told me she was attracted to this guy.. so i told her go for it.. always listening to her.. i tot she was nice.. nice enuff to bite me in de baq.. look.. i noe he's got like loads of admirers... i seriously dun mind de rest... i mean how can i?? since im like one of dem aso.. but the worst thing is.. u were my fren u noe.. one of de slightly closer ones.. vry few i will count as ppl whom i have connection with.. she was one of dem.. get it? understand why it feels so sick?? i friking tot she was nice.. i used to tell her my probs.. she used to tell me hers... n like arghhh i hate it.. so great... i found out shes been having feelings for him.. FINE.. she told him... NICE... she flirted.. wow... break record.. wad else do u need? a fren, who i tot was nice, sed he's not her guy, falls for her, den flirts.. arghh... i tried u noe.. to let things be.. to act like ntg happened.. not easy... yea.. i maybe petty... wtv.. im jzt... blah.. lack of confidence, insecure... why?? haha.. coz i aint as attractive as ppl i see in de streets... i get called friking flat all de time.. kay lar.. u probably think i dun mind.. coz i laff it off wen ppl tell me tat.. u noe how friking irritating it is..?? wen der r ppl constantly reminding u of ur flawness.. yes i see it as a friking flawness.. damn u ppl.. n yea im like not smart, not athletic.. not anything la.. fuck la.. i hate it kayys.. sheesh.. n de bitch.. gets the nice body, de "cute" face, de brains.. n god noes wad.. dammits.. screw life hard..

no offense taken...im not okay.. thx for coming..

2006-05-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

LOVE ME DARR DARR.. =] hugz n kisses

2006-05-01T17:07:00.000-07:00

SIANN...!! lol i'll nvr snap out of being bored anyways.. its been like yrs since i went to mid valley n i seriously seriously wanna go out instead of staying at home rotting.. i did make an initiative to actually CALL SOMEBODY... but she was too busy for me larr!! TWICE SUMORE.. zzz wanna go jogging with sumone apparentlyyyyy... hahaha guess who weh... anyways tink she felt guilty enuff... AND SHE HAD THE TIME TO GO PERM HAIR N NOT GO WINDOW SHOPPING WITH ME!! lol.. guess hu ledi?? heheheh...waa.. ytd labour day, whole maxis service provider no line.. n i tot it was my sim card or my fone which had sum stupid problem until i realized tat my moms fone aso no line.. hahaha yea yea it was okayyy UNTIL suddenly it boomed wen i was halfway talking to him... zzz now i hear sum weird buzzing sound at the baq of it... IM HEARTBROKEN.. nono its not tat my fone is tatttt precious to me lerr... its like.. hahaha sry la but its smth which... i dun reli take care of??? guess tats y it boomed.. haha jzt like my webcam... blehh not reli good with electronics.. speaking of which no wonder my com died a few times.. sighss... its jzt tat if my fone screws up its gonna be so difficult to call him n contact him n all...blehhs... PRAY FOR MY FONE TO RECOVER PPL.. gosh... boredomness killing me plus adding the lameness in me.. as if im nt lame enuff... bear with it le ppl wakakaks.. haha siao lang...haha parents getting a teeny weeny bit upset coz been spending too much time on com.. until i helped dem to win deir hearts baq la.. so first... i help dad take the old com out so he cud take it baq to kedah.. lol den i helped mom with breakfast n now everyones happy with me... wooohooo.. n my sis is very amused with pangya for sum reason.. lol so yeala everybody's happyyy... lalalala... skool reopening tmr... dammits ive gotts sell all my iu day tics by tmr.. HELP PPL?? its 27 may, in federal hotel, 5th floor, starting frm 11.30 to 5 pm... n the theme's texas/cowboy... i wan cowboy hatt wheee.. loll tatazz love love rys =]]

2006-04-30T20:19:00.000-07:00

waaa playing pangya nowadays.. hehe mii n him ok liao... i tink ler..anyways.. aiyy dunu hw blog ledii.. today very happy nia.. hols until wednesdayy..din do much lerr... mid yr test coming up im still here relaxing.. lols time to fail physics again ler... sighss.. mad wan larr...sheesh was tinking of blogging a lot of crap the other day nw wen i wanna blog dunu wad to say ledi.. erms.. anyways ders like dis gurl.. whom i never spoke to n everythhing.. n like i jzt realized she comes here.. so yeala... if ur reading dis... i hope ur okay le.. i seriously dun mind u coming here n everything coz like dunu la it seems like shes quite nice n everything not like de other bitch... deng i treat u as friend... last time u say ulll never fall for him.. now wan turn diff story..

lalaal sianx...yaaa... to those hu read my blog ryte.. lol im fine lei no worries. hahah chill yahs.. bb love ya's

2006-04-28T03:38:00.000-07:00

dedicated to him only..
darr darr i miss u..
do u still come baq here?
i wish u still wud..
since when have i been so unlike myself?
losing the spirit to do anything without u..
losing the will to carry on widoud hearing frm u..
call me stupid,
call me dum,
jzt coz i dun want anything but him..
it wudn matter to me..
since i noe wad others think matters nothing more den having u with me..
i love u so much..
bt things have changed so much hasnt it??
we dun talk like we used to...
we arent as close as we used to be..
distance between us getting more visible..
i tot we could hold it together...
i tot i cud get ur heart to open up again...
guess i failed so badly..
guess im nothing but a failure...
life isnt good nowadays..
i wish i cud tell u dis..
but everythings jzt going dwn..
been failing in my tests..
been disappointing others..
worst still, i disappointed u..
so much tat u'll never let go of wad i did...
im sorry..
wish it was significant enuff to bring u baq..
to bring us baq together...
is it all gone?
or is der still a chance?
im trying as hard as i can already..
not enuff isnt it?
lol.. failure will u call me?
if not wad other words wud best describe me?
apart for being madly in love with u..
sighs..
things arent de same widoud me n u getting together..
i miss u
come baq to me?
love u loads...

`//_ dedicated to emrys mok.. de love of my lyfe...

smiles*
i guess im still ok...still hanging on..

2006-04-27T10:07:00.000-07:00

tears... cannot stop... ahhh i went to the gays' blog frm debs blog.. wow deyre like so in n im envious of de relationship dey hav... im straight but.. de distance.. its like.. nvm... spammers.. spam all u like... i reli got no mood to fight baq ledi. short post tonite.. miss emrys damn lot.. dunu wads happening.. like smths changing bt i dunt noe wad.. he doesnt wanna say.. aiyy..sad sad...

2006-04-25T23:38:00.000-07:00

.... fucking hell... gosh its been like total sucky day for the past two days.. dunu wtf happening... so start frm the night before ytd...finished downloading knights online.. den yeap played with rys n his couz hu doesnt like me for sum reason.. i mean i havent even met that guy n he dislikes me..so kay fine since he's his cousin i sabar oni la.. den i realized smth else n yeala long fucking story.. so de nxt morning obviously no mood ledi... so go skool fucking moody la... den had stupid ceramah... after tat stayed in de ceramah room awhile.. fucking bitch came in the room spoke to sum of his frens la.. den was toking abt summer splash n bikini girls.. tiba tiba de bitch wan come comment on me.. walao.. u sick den go fuck urself la... wtf gotta comment on me all... zzz yeala i fucking noe i flat la u tink i wan arh ma hai... sumore after tat comment on my lips alll zzz.. my problem la not like im close to him rite ccb... den okay fine... come home ledi cudn use com at all coz whole day sis or mom around la.. den called him at first ok wan.. den at night call again had to hide in de hall so cudn tok loudly.. den fight again...so today fucking hell fucked up mood.. zzz n my classmate today so hyper started commenting on me n everything zzzz fuck la wads it with these bitches so fuck it i mmg tada fucking mood blog.. zzz mahai scrreww the bitches.. n im fucking running out of cash...ccb la

2006-04-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

lalalalaala... deborah's got new blog.. im bored.. dwloading game.. been taking ages.. haha dat day, fren sed my blog ntg muc.. all abt me loving him worrxx.. lol too bad la i like =P =P ahhahah ... sry lorr me blog mmg lidat... hahah blog rritee obviously abt ur lyf n all.. n since my life is like mainly abt him.. den yeala abt him lerrxx...hahahah weird ppl.. come in n out of my blog.. nvr leave anything behind... kep thinking noone comes here.. lol i doubt they come here frequently la since entries so sienning... hahah but pppl like sharon tannn come visit my blog nvr say nethingg zzz...how i noe u actually visit worr... i mean like thk god i nvr say anything abt u lorr.... hahah bet shes rolling her eyes right nw... anyways enuff abt her laa.. i tink i did smth reli mean jzt nw lor.. heheh a bit bitchy la... went bitch dis girl whom i tot was quite nice last time... hahah wasnt as bad as wad i used to do to ppl i despised la.. wad to do right sit nxt to sharon everyday wad u think me n her always tok abt obviously gossiping leii.. girls nature maa... so bla bla baq to her... long story la now i dun give a damn abt her dee she wan do wtv she wan she do la... isyy not like shes gonna hav an impact on me right.. zzz I DUN HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PPL LIKE HER WAN LA... i not so petty hehee...den ive been listening to songs ler... WANG LEE HOM KISS GOODBYEE lol n 2moro.. budden i dunnu de titles of de songs SINCE THEY'RE ALL IN CHINESE and bbeing sumone hu doesnt noe chinese gotta listen to the song widoud understanding.. I FINISHED MY BIO HOMEWORKK hahahhaha a great success for me.. been rushing it in front of com whole afternoon.. even did my peka report.. both the before n after experiment.. HAHAHAH pro leii... wuahh i failed my physics wehh loll wasnt as bad as i expected i guess...ntg much ba... kkla i sleepy ledi dis post suxxx anyways lotsa grammar mistakes damn sien... mid yr exam ccoming n all zzz mad wan la...

LOVE love LOVE emrys MOK... hee!!

2006-04-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

did i mention....

that im absolutely in love with emrys mok?

hehe.. i tink i did.. lollss time to not be stupidd...tataz...

2006-04-23T04:14:00.000-07:00

KEBORINGAN!! lol sunday sunday.. as usual filled with boredom.. hahaz.. slept rather "early'" ytd night.. hehe gembiranyaa loll kk dun be maad.. anyways sis asked me go church wif mom todayy.. so i tot id probably purposely "oversleep" but wuah mom came running into my room shouting "8.45 LEDI!! WAKE UP LORR!!" so anyways i got a shock n like jumped out of bed.. den went to church lerr... uncle n aunt surprised to see me der. was saying see u nxt week. lol. aiyy means gotta go every week liao. den mom might ask me gow for family camp with the church to camerons. haha so beautiful leii the mist n flowers. total beauty. BUT ITS 150 BUXX!! kk its probably the norm n all budden 150 buxx can do so many thinggss!!! liek getting me straight hair?!

hehe freaky pic..
http://www.beautymalaysia.com/article.cfm?id=43
http://blog.thestar.com.my/comments.asp?id=111
or getting me a cyber shot digi cam?!! which is super super slim n plus i love taking pics of meself.. heheh sumore since my webcam mati edi i stopped taking pics !! lol dun mind me for being vain lar. its in the blood of gurls.. lol.
btw.. i like the black version of it..
http://www.ebay.com.my/viItem?ItemId=7606516918
can also get me a trip to visit sg!! lol nice nice... seriously la go see the views ok...

err i dunu wers dis.. :S

esplanade.. breathtaking wehh.. looks so much better den our petronas tower which costed us millions.. zz

anyways yeala.. so ntg much to blog abtt i guess...wan see icons? hehe

lol.. retardedly cute! hahah i hav more tho.. nt enuff space ler.. nxt time yayahs? gtg dee bb peeps..

2006-04-22T02:16:00.000-07:00

Despos?

HAHAHA!!! i was super bored since i cudn follow andrew to quicksilver revolution and meet up with deborah n kai xin today.. so yea at first i browsed thru frenster n looked at the weird stuff like cutie's club, asian castle n all sorts of crapp like tat n i seriously wonder why wud anyone join smth like tat?? tho i do tink sum gurls look superb ler.. stilll its not like u need a competition like tat rightt... bahh sumore one fren of mine.. lol he actually won a category for one of the things la.. so dis is how it workx... sum despo on frenster adds the wtv "asian castle" or cutie's club or wadsoever.. den dey sumhow choose u for tat month for a category.. den ppl vote thru the testimonials.. n de person hu gets the highest number of votes will win it for tat mth... stupid?? yes i think so..

den u hav like de contestants for asian castle or sumting lolls

lolllll weird weird!!! hahaha
but u gotta admit sum of dem quite pretty laa... jzt tat i seriously cannot understand why so despo.... zzz

ooo sum weird pose of a few gurls lol... 0.O
lol.. anyways no offense taken by any readers please.. jzt a sheer bit of entertainment for me n myslef to laugh abt.. smiles** =]

LoveS darr darr...

btw, those hu are interested, u might wanna visit dis.. hehe xP

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=26889747

uhh.. i forgot the other link n i cudn track it dwn.. so too bad la lol..

2006-04-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

I AM BORED!!!

lol.. enjoyy::
angels::

loves::

idols::

LOL!!

hehe...

2006-04-19T06:29:00.000-07:00

Wang Le Ai

jie dao wo pai huai
deng liang qi lai
bing leng leng de wu qi feng chui bu san
kan zhe ni li kai
xin you dian luan
gai re nao de shi hou ni que bu zai

yi ge ren neng shuo chu zen mo yang de dui bai
kong fang jian zhi sheng wo de wu nai

hua xie le hua you kai
ni que bu zai hui lai
jing jing de shi zhe wang le ai

deng zhe ni xing lai
tian you xie an
zhan zai zhe li zhi wei le ni hui lai

yi ge ren neng shuo chu zen mo yang de dui bai
kong fang jian zhi sheng wo de wu nai

hua xie le hua you kai
ni que bu zai hui lai
jing jing de shi zhe wang le ai

yi ge ren neng shuo chu zen mo yang de dui bai
kong fang jian zhi sheng wo de wu nai

hua xie le hua you kai
ni que bu zai hui lai
jing jing de shi zhe wang le ai

Snow Angel!! haha.. i noe i noe its like a totally old show but i still love it wehss!! lol.. i seriously need de song lols.. ^^ toro toro!! loll kkz im obsessed.. pics pics!! i lykeee!!!

From left:- Yan Xing Shu, Gurl Gurl Actress, TORO!!

toro toro!!

uhh.. cudn reli find tat many leii.. zzz lol im boreddd!! =[[[

2006-04-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

sobs... IM BAQ ONLINE... my fone got confiscated coz mom caught me talking on it n i tried denying.. haha smart move.. kena nag like mad den now fone kena confiscated.. sad sadddd... anyways baq frm tuition lei.. got my test results.. hahah i got 100%%% FOR ADD MATHSS!! hahah sry la vry happy for myself... but still dying in tuition... n i got like 56 for chemistry.. zzz pretty sad case la.. n i bet i failed physics coz oni 2 ppl passed ... bakaa.... haiz tot wud be happy coming online today leii... den first thing i realized was his nick... a cut so deep that wounds the heart.. i aint sure hus he talking abt.. n it hurts that hes not telling me.. i mean we're drifting so so apart tat its even furthur den de distance between de north pole n de south polee!!! gee... its like.. since wen we havent been telling each other everything.. jzt struck my mind i was probably doing most of de talking.. sigh.. mebe its tru tat i dun understand him enuff.. but ive tried.. uve gotta tell me how u feel... n like... things like ur nick makes me really wonder whether... ahh nvm keep it to myself la.. yeee so tired of skool.. today had like oni 3 periods of lessons.. the rest of it was like freeee period.. haha did chem experiment lollll shuda look at the expressions of my frens and i wen we heard de pop sound lol.. like sum kampung ppl oni.. blaa ntg much to blog abt ledii... stress laa interact stuff haven dooo... kerja amal... blahhh bullshit la wei... lol still vry vry grateful for having great frens lerr.. lol im ok wan la will hav to emo awhile den will be fine.. hahaz.. love ya ppl... smiles kays? i'll try to... haha...

2006-04-15T02:41:00.000-07:00

okay.. so i said i was in a good mood.. hell yea i was.. but fuck it im not right now.. i dunu wtf happened we were chatting happily n all of a sudden everything jzt turned upside dwn.. jzt great dunt understand how cud everything change so quickly.. i do not understand yes... call me stupid but ah wtv la.. okay...readers.. im friking upset. bear with it or leave...so u suddenly become so cold n i wonder why.. i ask u why.. i ask u if ur angry.. no ur not.. i asked wad i did rong.. u sed nth.. den wad is it thats making u not speak to me.. fuck... it friking suxx not noeing wad happens.. i tell u im sorry n love u n no response.. sheesh im fucking typing here as tears fall down my cheeks...fuck it... i tot all was great now its all a piece of arghhhh i dunt noee... im jzt wondering wtf went rongg n ur not telling meee... great larr.. fuck everythin up coz it sucks...

IM NOT FUCKING OKAY...

2006-04-14T22:23:00.000-07:00

wuahahah was bored decided to edit.. n i edited the urm.. whee part of my blog.. lol i dunu wad do u call it anyways jzt click on de navigation on de right which sez whee n be happy.. lol slight change oni anyways.. smile ppl.. im happy tho my fones dead .. ='[

2006-04-14T21:06:00.000-07:00

zzz!! ='[ my fone is spoilt.... cannot turn onn... =[ wad m i gonnaaa dooo witoutt ittt!! *sobs**
tests overrr hahah managed to cramm everything in two days.. tink i shud hav done ok ba.. tho i knew i cud hav done better anyways.. bahh all coz i nvr studyy haha me to be blamed..nxt wk having accounts test at derricks.. zz jzt finished monthly test gotta study for his test.. -.- i wanna gow shopingg!!! lol i went to mid valley other day.. omigawsh gurls der so pretty im jealous..im seriously seriously wondering how do dey keep deyre face like so totally nice fair n blahhh vry vry nice.. zzz sheesh wad luck dey hav lar wei.. anyways america's next top modell!! isy missed it other dayy grr... lol nice to watch cat fight wuahahas.. damnn... my posts so sienning.. i wanna watch wen a stranger calllss... dunu why everyones crazy over i not stupid too.. i wanna watch the wild ehh but seems like everyone else don wan bleh.. sez it looks like madagascar n madagascars way way cuter.. yeee i reli reli wanna goowww outtt so boawing at homeee... anyways life's normal ntg much to blog abt lei.. lol n debb killed me for telling her i updated ytd coz my post was like oni two lines.. zzz damn my blogs boring wuwwuu!!! lol n everyones going thru love love problem lols.. aiyaaa ppl shud jzt let go wen deyre asked to.. i mean if its over its over dun hold it on coz the other person might hav sumone else in mind adee... fyi im nt talking abt myself im still very into the same person... and ooo my frens complaining my fonts vry small so i make big big la now ok? went n kepochi in other ppl's blog tat day.. waa nice wehh i like de skinss lol but i felt so mean la i randomly visit their blog altho i dunu dem lol.. sad sad...haha dunu why today vry guud mood sia.. lol mus be bcoz of wad he sed other day la lol nvr tot id hear him say it wakakakak im mad la wad to do madly in love adee... and yerrr i wore specs to skool ytd coz woke up late naahxx den whole world thinks i look ugleee =[ i noe la dey very pretty n handsome all no nid la say i uglleeee!! sobs sobss... gee wad else to blog abttt aaaa damn sien leii now... wuwuwuw!!! i wan gow mid valley hu wan bring mee?? sobs sobs...

miss miss emrys mokkk

2006-04-14T07:25:00.001-07:00

zzzzz sien.. gtg soon.. money crisis.. no credit.. dying.. cries... bahhh :'( miss uuu

2006-04-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

STRESS!!!

sighh.... i just came baq frm addmaths tuition n i seriously seriously need to chilll.... gawdd stress shyt man... "fish" la... zzz

#1- my 2nd monthly test is tmr, crammed five major subs in one day.. including history, addmaths, physics, biology, n bm... and guess wad i haven touched a single book since very long ago except for history which i only studied half or a quarter of wad im supposed to cover by tmr.. DAMMIT!! i feel like swearing like damn damn lot noww n i need to bang sumones head at the wall jzt to get my angryness away.. and look i can assure u i will fail my physics so for all my haters out der... smile right dis instance... screw u guys hus smiling right noww!! arghh!!

psst.. i apologize.. no right of me to curse u for being happy while im in a totally pissed of mood right now..

#2- i came baq frm my addmaths tution feeling superbly superbly stoopid.. yesh.. extremely dumaasing brain i have n i feel arghhh dunu words how putt!!! great.. tuition suxx right now.. i sit like totally alone.. n its very very saad trust me.. sigh.. I DUN WANNA GO TUITION ALONE.. n gosh altho my very very efficient pn khoo tot us in skool adeee BUT ITS LIKE ARGHHH the tuition exercises are none like the ones i do in skool its as if its 100000000 times more difficult.. i am exaggerating but its close to that trust me... i am so super blurr in class and ders noone to be blurr with me coz im aloneeee!! and each time i come home feeling very very tired n stoopid..

not my first time feeling stupid.. i felt very very dum n brainless while doing the wicked puzzle online... BAHHH!!! KILL ME STAB ME DIS INSTANCEE....

#3- u noe.. i always tot tuition was TOTALLY unnecesary for me.. yes i was a bit big-headed to tink dat I WILL NEVER NEED TUITION!! and i never attended tution UNTIL dis year when everything comes bashing downn N IM ALREADY TAKING 4 SUBS goshhhhhh AM I SO STUPID TO NEED TO TAKE EVERY SUBJECT?? ** note i am not insulting anyone but i dislike going for tution for i like to sleep at home.. ty... save meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and jzt de other day mom commented smth tat sounded as if im getting weaker coz i need extra classes.. *sobs** MY BRAINS GROWING SMALLERRR!!!

#4- ive got lotsa crap to finish up like MY HOMEWORK WHICH I LEFT UNDONE FOR MTHS ALREADYY and to get my letters typed for not attending skool... and planning for the camp which i WISH to have dis yr for interact clubbb BUT SIGHHH with my hectic "schedule" i need a break frm all dese!! sigh.. also i lost my name taggieeee !!! ='[ i cudn find itttt anywhereee... blahhhhhhh!!! give me a breakk..

#5 der is smth rong with my mouse it wont move properly n im in a huge money crisis...

#6- MY EYE HURTSS OKAYY i hav no idea why... but oh one nice thing to ponder abt tonighttt... heheh apart frm the fact im still happily in love lols... IM GETTIN NEW SPECS TMR!! lol.. not like it matters to anyone else coz dey dun see me with glasses.. oni contact lens but no doubt im happy lollll yee yeee!!

still very unhappy tho.. n i gtg after dis post sad sadlyyyy.. OMFGGGG N IVE GOTTA FRIKING STUDYYY i dun feel like it.. haha lemme flunk everything.. friking stressful lahhhhsss!!

fuck...

mayy love rysss eva eva eva 4evaaaaa...

lol i got so bored during pjk.. i sketched his name all over me book lols.. now its beautifullll... lol and pn yasogee==== vry nice teacher coz got double standards lol.. scolded praviin like mad for not bringing his book.. den she asked me wers my book n i sed sum crap.. lol n i tot id die tat instance but she sed.." ok nvm.. its a valid reason.. i accept it.. " LOL double standard.. i lykeee!! lol.. tataz.. no stress ppl =]

2006-04-09T20:09:00.000-07:00

let me tell u right dis instance that i have a super strong feeling that today is not a very good day...why?? because i haven been gettin enough sleep and i lied in order to stay home frm skool n yes it totally sux.. for once i actually wish i was in skool coz IVE GOT SO FRIKING MUCH TO DO but arghhh... dis is so so frustrating.. everytime i tink of skool gets so stressed up.. i mean all de homework n noites n everything n ive been skipping skool FOR SO MANY days and like im so gonna get screwed one day.. mebe wednesday but im jzt too tired to carry on liao.. hav to go explain everything to mom sis teachers everyone ARGH im sick of staying home n everything suxxx right nowww yesss it sucks big timeee.... DAMMIT i feel like breaking my com...speaking of which ive got LOADS N LOADS OF CRAP TO DOOO... i cant wait for saturday...

2006-04-09T14:23:00.000-07:00

5.24.. mom waking up anytime soon.. jzt finished heipn him with his project.. i did like ntg practically.. sighs... its jzt tat no matter how hard i try i jzt stare at it blurrly wondering wad to do.. its not like i din wanna help... I DIN NOE HW TO!! gee.. sad for bein stupid.. neways finish ad.. i doubt its as good as wad he wants but tats like the best tat i cud do.. i wasnt even sure hw to do it.. hope its ok.. n prayin hard for his presentation tmr.. he put in so much effort liao.. sleepless nights wei... ought to get smth good for it if not den i shall say der is no justice on earth.. alrighttt... sleeepyy... missing him loads.. nt sure if hes still pissed with me ... hope i did everything ok.. hope i din screw it up.. id rather screw my own project den his den not so siong lei.. zzz sheesh.. cant stp wondering if he tinks its ok.. blahh.. gtg nightss ppl...

LOVE RYS

2006-04-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

baahhh!!! ITS 12.35 AM im currently super tired... my eyes are droopy and i cant take it anymore.. havent been blogging lately coz my com was dwn.. gosh u can nver imagine the pain and anger n frustration and all de WARGHHH feelings booming in my head wen my com died... gawdd den i tot dunu why cannot reformatt lol and like noeing me once smth goes bad im like super pisd n cannot tink properly.. sumore dad went like u so angry for wad.. lol

went for dinner in lot 10 on saturday night wit mom dad n sis.. was sum place called la mian xiao long bao or smth lidat... forgot lei super super long mandarin name.. basically eats noodles n sum other reli choon food.. super nice la anyways.. originated frm sg btw.. hahaah anyways was super nice dinner i had with my family.. long time since i laffed like damn lot with dem.. blahhh!!! sobs** anyways i had like damn stupid dream one night.. so dum i dun wish to mention it coz IT WILL NOT HAPPEN!! prays hard**

dad went baq kedah today.. lol feels so weird.. no idea why.. i used to cry wenever he goes baq der as i watch him leave for kedah but now it seems so normal n i dun even send him to the bus station nemore... its so so weird!! kaysss... note my relationship with him was never tatttt closee so i guess its not so weird after all??

so anyways today.. went to order new specs.. gettin it dis thursday.. lol.. and urm i came home.. got deb's call to go for jogging.. was shocked but she brought me around tmn desa lol to places i din noe altho ive been living here for yrs already... hahahah she tot i was vry blurr as usual... n gosh the dogs are fierce man.. -.-

came home.. called rys.. and like.. haha came on9 reformat com.. hahah thx to him oni if not i'll be banging my head on de wall ad.. den now chatting with ppl.. blah heard sum stuff which I TOT ID NEVER HEARR... I MEAN WAD KIND OF PERSON WUD DO SMTH LIKE DAT?? U FRIKING NOE IM TOTALLY MADLY DEEPLY INTO SUM GUY... N U GO FLIRT WITH HIM WEN I WAS GOD DAMN NICE TO U LAST YR.. KAY FINE SO U TOT WAD I DID WASNT RIGHT BUT HELL KEEP UR HANDS OF HIM LA...

sry for de sudden outburst.. no point anyways not like she comes here... ughhh n i tot she was nice... AND GOD I PRAY HARD DAT U WILL FIND A WAY TO WASH AWAY ALL DIS JEALOUSY FROM MY BODYYY N SOULL so i'll live a happier n more naive life... ty.. also praying hard for hehe him n me n everyone around me esp me angels... thx alot alot alottt wuahahah...

kk sleepy im staring at like dis word document trying to do sth into another word document n like by monday n its tmr n im stupid n blurr n SAVE MEEE =[ sobs...

i still love emrys mok a lot alot alot!!!

2006-04-05T23:23:00.000-07:00

.... 2nd entry for today.. lotsa blog changes.. lotsa crap... must hav shown u how bored i was... sighhhh i dunuuu wad to sayyyy i dunu how to tell u dun noe how to show uu wad i reli reli feeelll!!! i mean i told u a million times already... yet i noe u think it probably doesnt mean a single thing to u... i mean arghhhh to hell with it i wish i stayed sumwer nearer to uu... kk so i say "I LOVE YOU" to u for a million times already... and ahhhh its jzt so weirddd..... zzz i dunu wad am i crapping abt.. but at times like dis as i listen to songs and think of u i wonder wad shud i sayyy bleahhhh save me... i friking love u!! sigh...

how can i show u wad i seriously feel for u?? wud u ever take me baq wud everything go baqqq im soooo arghhhhhh practically praying everynight to see u in my dreams... jzt to get a glimpse of u in my dreams jzt to think as if ur next to me.. DAMMIT!! it hurts coz i keep wondering if i'll ever do wad i think abt...and blahhhh!!! but dreams do come true right?? =\ sighs...

2006-04-05T20:09:00.000-07:00

woke up at 9 something today, should be studying right now but ahh!! gosh never tot anything cud be so boring as history feels right now! okay lemme rephrase tat.. HISTORY IS SUPER DUPER BOAWING!!! its killing me seriously.. i did notes for like onli three pages, actually 2 and a half pages of my text book n im half dying.. im supposed to finish studying till page 86 and now im stuck at 47.. great.. jzt great.. i mean history is quite an interesting subject if u ask me but hell the text book and the teacher sucks so wad do u expect..?? note:: i do not complain about every single teacher of mine altho i did in the previous entry and de current one.. i mean i did think pn wan rahana was like one of the worst teachers i cud get last yr for she speaks so loud and fast noone actually catches wad she sez and all we do is stare blankly at her or pretend that we understand.. i usually do the latter and fortunately ive been suceeding to fool her.. =x anyways.. shes probably like the best teacher now if u compare her to mr rahim.. he talks to like practically himself, doesnt mark our books, doesnt give notes, and jzt talks on and on abt things which are so irrelevent!! i mean he teaches us how to remember the word "persisiran pantai" which means beach side or smth like tat in direct translation and "lembah sungai" (river side??).. i mean i guess if we cant remember such simple terms like tat in FORM FOUR wen we've been using tat word since like ages ago doesnt he think we're a teeny weeny bit too stupid? the worse thing is the way he teaches makes me fall totally asleep and he jzt skips everything and go to the end of the chapter and sez we've finished.. -.- wow...

IM STILL STUCK IN CHAPTER TWO PAGE 47!!!! dammits... and ohmigawddd my physics tuition is full... *sobs* means i currently have to look for anoder tutor ASAPPPP before i fail more of my tests n exams.. grrr dang!

IU DAY IS COMINGG!!! hahahah i cant wait seriously!! lol time to go shopping.. lol im rather broke tho.. i shud get a raisee!!! i mean how can 45 buxx last me for a month??? ='[ i need money coz im in serious serious money crisis! gee... looking for loose change everywer i go.. blahhh AND THE FOOD IN THE NEW CANTEEN SUXXX.. they charged me 3 BUX for smth which costs 1 buck AND the chicken wasnt cooked properly! DIDNT THEY HEAR OF BIRD FLU?? zzz kk gtgg studyyy

ME LOVE EMRYS =]

2006-04-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

zzz.. tuition later... damn friking tired sia.. i cannot take it anymore!! goshh my eye hurts like mad... its super super red.. dunu wthell is rong with it... bleahhh..!! ='[[

hurmm 3 o clock.. goin out at 3.15 and im so sleepy.. dunu how am i gonna cope.. dammits my test is like nxt thursdayyy n i haven studied a single crapp... dunuuu wer to start anyways..

sister's birthday today...

gosh first lesson was physical education n yasogee came in started blabbering abt gurls shud look after their bodies dun let guys use it bla bla... sheesh... how many times do they hav to tell us.. as if we dont noe it already.. den she sed smth like we shud hav gurl talks nowadays teachers n students are gettin closer.. dang i dislike teachers hu try to make us feel as if their our fren or sumth... HEY UR OUR TEACHER!! stop trying to act like ur a fren of ours... it aint nice... get that straight... den she told us saying guys all wanna sleep with gurls n dump dem bla bla.. all dey want is sex... dangg.. isnt tat a bit way too mean.. n helloo??? shes got a son too u noe...so shes saying her son wanna sleep with his so called girlfren hu so happen is named carmen?? sheesh utterly ridiculous..n she started telling us abt her kids having boy frens n gurlfrens.. do we look like we wanna noe?? and as usual she talks abt her hard life telling us shes struggling everyday and yet shes very strong to come to skool n teach. blahhhh!!! n she sez as if shes like the biggest hooligan in her skool a few yrs baq.. apparently she was de ring leader of her group of gurls in her all gurls skool... well im glad tat i noe but i think she repeated her story far far too many times.. n by the way.. if shes been such a rebellious kid last time and yet she turned out as "good" teacher... i wudn turn out tat bad if i followed her footsteps wud i??

sheesh.. think of all de ways teachers wud say things jzt to get u interested...

anyways baq to my eye which looks like its bleeding.. I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHY ITS LIKE TAT!! sigh sigh mus be the contact lens which got contaminated along with my very very "clean" fingers since im such a hygenic person which at the end of de day managed to infect my eye which currently looks very red as if i cried the whole night... either tat or it might look as if i jzt popped in a red coloured contact lens...

zzz momm nag nag gtgeee... blahh i dun wan addmaths tuitionn!!! n gawd man m i sturggling thru physics... i barely noe a thing of it.. thanks to pn ho coz all she does is threaten every single student in my class which consists of ONLY 26 ppl..... N SHE WANS MORE OF US TO GET OUT.. sigh... nicest teacher ive come across...

I LOVE YOU!! missd u de whole day... love love emrys!! <3

2006-04-04T02:26:00.001-07:00

okayy!!! ive finally gotten the codes for de posts part correct... now for de rest of it... gosh i tink this layout sucks for sum reason... it looks too pink n weird... gahhh!!! n i spent so much time on it.. sigh.. nvm la will try to improve on it soon..

oookayy... i realized de way i post my entries havent changed since last time lols...

but wtheck right its my blog so my right to type however way i want to..

wooo wad online yesterday evening n i was trying to do dis funny iq test questions thingy.. lol i tink de guy hu set it was choon man... either that or i totally suck... i guess its of the latter anyways.. baahhhh i hate iq tests!!!!!

reason #1:: i noe i dont have good iq n therefore i dont see a need in doing an iq test..

reason#2:: it shows other people how dum i get n how much help i need to solve a one second question for him but i take like practically hours to crack it..

reason#3:: instead of noeing how smart i am by taking a test of tat sort.. i find out how stupid i am jzt by struggling at the simplest question uve come across!!! dammits

reason#4:: and thus it makes my self-esteem super duper loww.... making me feel ashamed of mentioning to him how stupid i am

wuahahahas... dammit im dum n dying...

sighs.... sooo...... had interact meeting todayy... bla bla second meeting for de club dis yr.. so so oniii... I HAVE TO SELL 5 TICKETS FOR IU DAY WHICH IS COMING SOON SO HUEVER HU WANNA BUY COME LOOK FOR ME PLEASE?? ty vry vry much.. =D

kk so sum publicity here la since im toking abt iu day...

date:: 27 may 06
time:: i forgot
venue:: federal hotel in sum funny ballroom thingy...
price:: 38 bucks onlyyyyy~~

so come okok?? hahahah kkla dis entry sucks man... lol

I MISS EMRYS MOK =]

2006-03-25T17:53:00.000-08:00

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